Feeling broken

[hrj]

 There's something about Fridays. I don't quite know what. After my first couple books were published, Fridays were always the day I had an emotional crisis about how no one would every read my work and I'd never get a chance to finish writing the series and I'd never find my audience because I'd made bad choices and I was just generally an incompetent human being.

Today was going along ok -- making good progress on my older investigations, only mildly annoyed at getting a new one dropped on me that has a schedule that doesn't work well with my planned vacation. Then around the end of the work day I spotted some tweets about how it was Asexual Visibility Day (hey, at  least Hallmark hasn't picked up on it) and I went and spilled some emotions on twitter, and then over dinner in the garden I watched The Half of It (which is the proximal reason why I decided to subscribe to Netflix), and when it was over I started ugly-crying for a while and probably scared the neighbors.

So many feelings.

Fridays. Ugh.

I should probably stop writing because I'll just be messy all over everything.

Comments

[hudebnik]

Yeah, what they said.

You are an extraordinarily accomplished, intelligent, competent, admirable, and lovable person. Anybody who says otherwise, including you, is itching for a fight.

[kareina]

Hudebink has a good summary there. I am sorry that Fridays can be so hard, and wish there was something I could do to help. But if knowing you have dedicated fans like me doesn't make it easier, I don't know what will.