Poem

[hrj]

I am mourning the thought of leaving this house
Like the anticipation of a death in the family,
And yet --
The things I have done to make it my own,
I could do again.
The things I have surrounded myself with to line my nest
Would come with me.
And wherever I go,
I will plant plums and roses.
There must always be plums and roses.

Comments

If

[dame-cordelia.livejournal.com]

If you end up moving, I will help you transplant roses.

[klwilliams.livejournal.com]

Change is scary, and can be horribly sad. It can also be an exciting new adventure. I hope you move to a safe neighborhood close to friends, that is a good place for plums and roses.

Re: If

[hrj.livejournal.com]

No transplanting -- the bargain I have with my yard is that I plant for the future, but not necessarily for me. (It's a long story.) There will always be new roses to plant.

[kahnegabs.livejournal.com]

Karen said it all!
I hold good thoughts for you.
Do you already have a place in mind?

Re: If

[dame-cordelia.livejournal.com]

I understand.

If I leave my current home most of the plants will stay behind.

[hrj.livejournal.com]

The first step is to do the thought experiment of what parameters I'd be looking for. Based on crime stats, access to BART, and affordable housing, plus (ideally) reasonable proximity to people I know to socialize with, I'm currently thinking in terms of Concord. While I love the idea of VIctorian or Craftsman architecture, it tends to be either expensive or in higher crime areas.

[kahnegabs.livejournal.com]

Well there are a lot of nice places up for sale, and a lot of nice Teufelbergers ready to keep you company!

[syele.livejournal.com]

and laurel! And all of us! :)

[hrj.livejournal.com]

Well, the laurel I'd have to start again from scratch. Lots of things I'd have to start again from scratch. It's odd: so many of my friends are so mobile and unrooted. It's not like my current house is some sort of family heirloom. I don't know why I'm so freaked out about the thought of moving. All I know is I have to do SOMETHING. I just can't take this any more.

[kareina.livejournal.com]

I look forward to seeing the thoughts you share as you do the research for moving--I can't see you doing it without having first crunched lots of numbers, not only in the categories you list in replies to comments here, but in other categories as well--there are ever so many quantifiable factors.

Someday I will be in a position where it will be possible to purchase a house--when that happens the lessons I learn from watching you decide where you'd be willing to move will be a great asset. Even if you wind up choosing not to move, the research you do before coming to that decision will be interesting to me.

[cellio]

It's sad to be driven out like that and have to start over somewhere else, but maybe you can also see it as an opportunity to make something even better for yourself? You probably have more resources to draw on now than when you found this place, which might blunt the blow a little?